I was all alone on Sunday so I decided to go swimming. The thing is, it was Sunday and ramai orang menyebabkan aku agak malas yet I managed to secure a chair [ala yang boleh baring-baring nak sunbathing tulaa.. aku tatau apa nama dia ntah].
On my way towards the chair I saw a stud and my heart leaped, ohh kacakk. Tapi senyumanku mati when I saw another stud and they were holding hands. Apalah, kenapa hemsem hendak berpasangan dengan si hemsem but still, indahnya ciptaan Tuhan yang dua ekor ini.
And I did climb down to the pool with my perut gendut but halfway sahaja because the water was fucking cold. Aku dapat rasakan bontot aku yang lebar ini tetibe mengecut sebab sejuk sangat. So I climbed back and sit on my chair, next to a hot arab guy. Jarang aku nak admit arab adalah hot, tapi yang ni memang hot, aku terperasan dia jeling-jeling aku [hahaha, mainan perasaan betulllllllll] so I had to suck my tummy all the time. Babi sungguh, letih tau tak, nak control perut flat punya pasal. Hoh!
Anyway, a family captured my sight. Initially I saw two teenagers, two boys playing with joy inside the pool, and then I saw a pretty hot lady [for her age] waved at them, followed by a man in a red spandex. Ok, gelila lelaki pakai spandex tapi apahalla pulakkan, dah katanya swimming pool. They must be a family because after that I saw the guy climbed down into the pool and join the teenagers while the mommy splashed some water to them while laughing. Later the woman and the guy hugged each other while the children took pictures of them. I found myself smiling in discreet.
I don’t know how to explain what I see but their expression were genuinely happy and they way they looked at each other, full or love and adore. Even when the way the guy looked at the women, sungguh penuh perasaan sayang even perempaun tu punya lurah bontot nampak sebab sluar dia low cut sangat. Nak je aku pegi naikkan seluar dia dekat situ jugak.
Hmm, lari topic.
What I want to say is, sometimes I wonder how could couples who initially claimed they were madly in love with each other suddenly fall out of love after sometimes. And worst, sometimes they hate each other. Ok, I understoodlah when kau baru je couple-couple, that’s like a trying phase but when a couple decided to get married, they should be aware of what they are doing and the responsibilities that they are bearing. Like my bedmate said, you said your vows and you should always remember the vows.
I am no expert tapi from my observation dengan orang-orang keliling aku, kadang-kadang aku rasa orang kawen for the sake of nak kawen, nak pakai baju chantek-chantek, nak buat wedding grand or alasan, menghalalkan sex or even nak tutup mulut orang ramai especially parents. So what happen when the wedding is over and you have to adorn in your normal clothes or you are too old to have sex? Or not attractive anymore? Hehe memangla kawen tu harusla nak romen [rempit tak guna romen? haha] malam-malam tapi it’s not just about that. And it’s your life, lantakla orang nak kata apa, sebab lepas kawen kau yang nak hidup dengan orang tu. Before you witness and said “aku terima nikahnya” you have to be sure that you can’t live without that person. Marriage is a good thing tapi you have to be sure. Sebab, nampak je macam best tapi sebenarnya, kalau tersilap buat pilihan jadi tak best. Rasa nak cekik-cekik je orang yang tidur sebelah tu masa dia tido. Hehe saiko.
Tapi ada jugak yang kawen memang atas dasar want to live together tapi lepas tu jadi lain. That one I don’t know tapi aku agak, mungkin salah satu sebab ialah masing-masing degil and tak nak communicate. Ke bukan?
Wahhh akuuuuuuuuuu. Sungguh poyo. But, macam tak biasala kan? Haha
But he has a different view.
He said, we were born into this world without having any chance to choose who our parents and siblings are. Still, we love them unconditionally and yes, they are arguments sometimes but somehow tetap ada perasaan kasih itu dalam hati. Memang ada adik beradik yang bergaduh berpecah belah tapi kata oranglah “air dicincang tak akan putus”. And he said, orang dulu tak pegi dating pun, terus kawen, bahagia je. They never see each other before the wedding tapi their marriage lasted their whole life. So maybe arranged marriage akan lebih bahagia, sebab you don’t have a choice, you just have to work things out.
I don’t really agree with arrange marriage, thinking of it menakutkan aku nak nak memikirkan pilihan mak aku macamana. Hohhh.
Tapi one thing for sure, I pray that aku tetap akan menchentai orang yang sama dan janganlah aku ever fall out of love. And for that person to feel the same way too.
