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  • I know that most of my posts were not pleasing these days but I need to write them down. Therefore, if you feel you don't need to read anything negative, pathetic, depressing in this blog, just skip whenever you see "depression" tag at the bottom of my post.

    You can skip that or skip this blog all together :)

     


Wiped

by chics on Friday, 27 January 2012 - 9 am · 1 comment

in angst

After waiting for few days, today I received an email from Find My Iphone

 

 

 

 

So finally the person who took my phone connected to the Internet but he/she offed my phone because I still can’t detect its location.

 

Oh well, at least I know some confidential data dah di erase – facebook login, twitter account login dan segala login.

Good thing I didn’t keep any pin no or password in that phone cuma aku tertanya-tanya gambar xxx aku ade ke tak dalam tu? Aku rasa takde, ke adaa?

Fuck.

 

Aku rasa takdela, video and gambar kucing banyakla, lepas tu ada iperiod. Padan muka kau kena baca jadual period aku termasuklah nota-nota saiko dalam app tu.

Lepas tu ada app Al Quran, silalah baca dan hayatinya.

 

Eh tapi mesti dia tak baca sebab aku dah wipe, tapi before dia connect dekat internet maybe dia go through kot.

 

Ok aku tetiba stress

 

Because I fucking miss twitting, instagram, pinterest and my gameeeeeeeeeeeees. Dah tak boleh dah aku nak menggelupur score bejeweled sebab main dekat pc tak feel, tak boleh main sambil berak. Lepas tu game Japan city aku lagi.

 

Sigh.

I do not want to talk baout this anymore.

 

Tata

 

 

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Who’s on your mind.

by chics on Thursday, 26 January 2012 - 12 pm · 2 comments

in family,mellow,Pets,sadness

Who do you think of before you doze off to sleep at night?

For me, I will think of Ah Beng.

 

Every night while cuddling the pillow I will feel how empty the bed is, the room seems so quiet too.

I really miss his hind legs pushing me to give him more space, I miss him snuggling up to me.

How can I not miss someone who is so loyal to me? He also returned my love the way I loved him, without judging, without scrutinising my weaknesses. He made me feel loved, worthy and needed. Sometimes I think he loves me more than I love myself.

It’s true that I have two adorable kittens now but they are not the same, maybe because they are still too small to share the bond that I have with Ah Beng.

You know, I miss him so much that every night without fail, I will call out his name. I do not know where do animals go after they die but if they linger around and visit their old friend once in a while, I want him to know I really miss him and he is always on my mind.

It has been months since he was gone but it still hurts so much. There are times when I can’t still accept the fact that he is no longer with me. When I smoke at my favourite spot, I sometimes expect him to jump over and accompany me with his beautiful eyes looking at me.

When he died, I keep saying to Swirly

” I want him back”

 

But then I realised, he was never really ours. We were given the opportunity to be with him only for a while and when it’s time, he has to be returned back to his owner, the Almighty.

It is shameful to beg for something which is not yours – that’s what I keep telling myself every time I break into tears and wishing he’s with me.

He’s gone, I know but it will take me sometimes to get over this.

 

Even after that, he will always be on my mind wherever I go.

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Lepak atas tilam panas dalam ekon.

by chics on Wednesday, 25 January 2012 - 2 pm · 3 comments

in family

How was your long holiday?

I spent mine with emak, I sleep over for two nights.

Bayar balik segala gossip yang tertinggal hehe.

It was weird for emak somehow, she keep asking me kenapa nak tidur sini, selalu tu mak ajak balik bukan main susah, busy memanjang.

Betul, kadang-kadang aku busy but actually it was more to permasaalahan jiwa. That time I avoid spending the night at emak’s place because I didn’t want her to know what’s going on and I felt more comfortable to be own my own.

 

I still enjoy my own company but it was nice spending time with her. Berbaring di atas katil dengan MJ sambil mengeji drama pilihan emak haha.

Ada satu drama tu, cerekarama kot, hero dia konon mat salleh tapi muka ala-ala Pakistan. Dahla kayu. Ceh

 

Pergi makan sama-sama dan sambil makan mengeji diri masing-masing sebab makan banyak-macamana nak kurus ni tapi sambil tu mintak nasi tambah. Haha

Dan dah besar ni, macam-macam yang emak cerita. Kadang-kadang aku tak percaya she can tell me all those things.

 

Sungguh bahagia rasanya dan untuk kali ke entah berapa aku bertanya diri sendiri, apa yang aku selalu rasa liat nak balik?

Setan, setan. Bilalah kau nak keluar spenuhnya dalam badan aku ni?

 

Salah sendiri, tapi tak nak ngaku salahkan setan.

Heh

 

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