Still having temperature.
And I feel so fucking empty. I cried the whole night because I am scared of what I am feeling.
I wish I can convince myself that I am worth to love, wanted and needed and I am not just an empty soul waiting to be discovered or saved by anyone.
It is hard to talk to someone about it because then people will think it’s the attention that I want. Honestly, no. If I could, I would prefer to keep everything to myself. It is easier that way, no one would know how weak I am.
But crying your heart out every day and wondering why, will soon drive away your sanity.
Tagged as:
depression
My body is burning.
I went away for few weeks to some place where I thought would bring me joy but I guess I was mistaken. It might not be true after all.
Well, I honestly don’t know.
It is hard to understand why some of us hide in masquerade.
Are we that ugly to show who we truly are? Are we that low to admit certain things albeit it scratch our ego?
In my sleep at night, I pray that He will protect me from any harm – from my myself and from other soul.
But as hard as I pray, I can hear the whisper getting stronger and the grip getting loose.
Tagged as:
depression
The other day [1 Feb] we teteks went out for lunch and Nik was saying she wanted to lose weight tapi susah. Well, memang, bukan dia je, aku pun rasa susah.
So I told nik, why not we do macam How I met Your Mother, kalau dia tak hilang berat aku akan tampar dia but then Tinah came out with a brilliant plan, kalau Nik tak hilang sebanyak 5 kg, dia akan di paksa to face her own fear.
Iaitu
Nik has been fearing snakes since forever. We used to tease her last time by throwing some tali sambil menjerit
“Nik, ularrrrr!”
And she will screamed and be so angry at us sampai merajuk bergaduh bagai.
And now, not only she has to take picture with this beautiful creature, she also has to put it around her neck. And the picture will be posted on this blog hehe.
Zasya twitted the other day how she squirmed sampai tertanggal tudung dalam kereta on the way home bila mengingatkan yang ular itu akan melingkar di lehernya.
Imagine Nik, the slimey and scaley body melingkar on your neck while it makes the hissing sound.
So you better lose that 5 kg by end the end of the month
Or elseeeeeeeeeeee
HEHEHE!
