life

Keputusan untuk berjumpa si dia yang ku takuti

by chics on Wednesday, 31 March 2010 - 10 am · 10 comments

in creepy,life

I made an appointment with the dentist tomorrow after procrastinating for well.. almost a year. Because I was too scared to let someone drill and do dontknowhatelse to my teeth I brace my self to endure the pain that will always come after eating any kind of meat or benda-benda keras.

But tomorrow is the day.

104/365: I love the dentist.

I am still calm now, don’t want to think about it. Plus bedmate won’t be around to teman me – more scary. Takde tangan untuk aku pulas or cakar. Jadi tak perlu pikir.

Besok, when the day comes barulah boleh menggelupur.

I know many would not understand apala yang takut sangat pergi dentist ni? Bukan setakat pergi dentist je aku takut, nak pergi facial pon aku takut because I cannot tahan the pain of either gigi kene drill or jerawat kene picit.

Seriously, mengalir-ngalir air mata. Don’t say that I went to the wrong place for facial sebab I even went to the reputable ones, yang memang dikenali but itulahhhh yang paling sakit, katanya efficient kan, semua nak picit. Eee

In my 30 years of living, adela 3-4 kali je aku pergi facial and dentist kot. Kalau boleh tak nak pergi.

The sakit is sharp and bertalu-talu and the worst part is, you are helpless. Macam, kalau kene gigit semut ke bolehla tepis semut tu kan, ni kalau tengah kene drill gigi apakah boleh aku tepis muka doctor tu?

Speaking or kene gigit semut, komfemm besok bila muka aku dah pucat lesi doctor tu akan cakap macam ni

” Jangan takut ye Sharina, sikit je, macam kene gigit semut”

WTFla, memangla kene gigit satu semut tak berapa sakit [still sakit pada aku] tapii cuba kalau kau suruh 97 ekor semut gigit di tempat yang sama or kawasan yang sama dalam beberapa detik sela masa [tetibe teringat pita detik. Bencii gila sexperiment tu ok!] baru kau tahu maksud sebenar kene gigit semut ok.

Fuckla yang aku kecoh gila ni apsal, macamla doctor tu baca pon blog ni. Hoh!

So, if I am still alive, I’ll update on my visit[visit keee?] to the dentist tomorrow.

Ceh, drama gila. Poyo

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Weirdolah you ni

by chics on Thursday, 18 March 2010 - 12 am · 18 comments

in life

In our life, we always stumble upon different characters of people and among them mesti ada pernah terjumpa jenis manusia yang weird. Or the type yang tidak disukai by other people because of their quirkyness.

Maybe it’s the way they dress, the way they communicate, the type of story that they told. It could be anything but the keyword here is – weirdo.

At the place where I am typing this, there is a person who can be considered as weird.  When you talk to her, she will conquer most of the conversations and some times her words does not make any sense; sometimes she dress inappropriately; some people said she snapped at them sometimes [although it has never happened to me before], they way she talks and some other quirky-nesslah.

In the beginning, I tend to get annoyed especially when she seems to forget when to stop [as iflah aku ni pendiamkan haha] yet until this day, we still remain friends.

I can say that not many like her but somehow I do. Before me, she will always go makan alone because she’s a loner and the fact that nobody wants to ajak her.  Kadang-kadang aku tak larat jugak nak dengar dia punya cerita tapi despite her quirky-ness, she is such a great friend and her friendliness appears genuine to me.

You know sometimes, when you befriended someone, somehow deep inside you, you feel like saying ‘bluerghhhhhhh’ walaupun orang tu nampak best.

She’s not one of them.

I’ve known this fact dari dulu cuma these few weeks adalah sangat terasa. Ok, these past few weeks aku adalah sangat stress. I have to deal with something that involved directly with VVIP, which kalau aku screw up, aku mati [sebenarnya aku agak mati but let's not go there].

And being a menggelupur person, of courselaaaaahhhhhh aku menggelupur nak mati. I am so tensed that I did not allow my mind and body to rest.

I think everybody knewlah just that she took the effort to make me feel better.

Sometimes I told her my worries, dalam dia banyak cakap tu, she will take time to listen to me and I know she is really listening, Not like sometimes when you tell people something, they just listen because they have to, you know what I mean?

And then, every single morning and night, she will sms me saying that she believed in me, I can do it, she will pray for me and other motivational words.

It is common to hear thing things from your parents, husband, siblings or close friend but when it comes from someone that you just mingle with for about few hours, it really touched me.

There was this night when I broke down and cry when her sms came in, it made me cry harder sebab aku sebaklah knowing someone who don’t really know me  could have some love and support for someone she barely knew. But at the same time, I feel.. appreciated, maybe.

I am not an angel [haha macamlah orang tak tahu, chics], aku ni bolehlah dikategorikan sebagai kak nam terulung but when people talked bad or complainted about her I cannot help from defending her.

Bukan dengan aku jela dia buat baik, karang korang cakap dia ada cruch dekat aku pulak [haha apakahhhhhhh?] she did nice things to other people also cuma orang je yang tak nampak kot. Terblind dengan appearance dia and dengan cerita-cerita dari orang lain mungkin.

Ok, maybe she was rude to some people, but maybe jugak those people did not try understand her or even accept her just because she is different. Make sense kan?

Walaupun aku baru berumur 30 tahun . Baruuuuuuuuuuu? What do you mean by baruu chicsssssssss?

Shadaplah.

What I am trying to say is, what is the wisdom of a 30-year old woman[sobs] compared to others yang dah banyak experience kan?

Ok, ok. Walaupon aku baru berumur 30 tahun, I came to a point where I don’t give a fuck about who you are, where you come from, whether or not your tetek bersalut emas or you drive a car yang diperbuat dari permata. Because all of that are superficial.

I have met those who claimed and appear to be so great. Appear onlylah tapi the truth is adalah contradicting.

What I am trying to say is, look beneath the layer. People like her, is often misunderstood. Don’t you think so?

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You are being laid off

by chics on Wednesday, 10 March 2010 - 10 am · 12 comments

in life

I watched Up in the Air last night. It was brilliant  but I am not going to write about the movie, except for aku tak pernah suka hero tua because old hero turn me off tapi George Clooney adalah exceptional. Sungguh berkarismaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Anyway.

While trying to sleep I was thinking about the movie. Katalah aku berkerja kan dan diberhentikan secara tiba-tiba, will I get piss? They are two answers.

I will get extremely piss if I know I have given my best and people also know the fact that I am doing a good job. Dan tiba-tiba aku kene fired. Especially scumbags yang makan gaji buta still have their jobs.

But I won’t get piss kalau aku sendiri tahu aku tak boleh perform, memang bengap tak reti buat kerja. Itu kalau orang nak sack aku tak boleh buat apalah.

Watching that movie made me scared, ramai yang kene fired in the movie cried thinking of their commitments – family, kids, house loan, car loan which is normal. It made me rethink of all the thing that I want. I mean let say I buy a posh car a nice house and suddenly this thing hit me, what the fuck am I supposed to do then?

Itu satu, satu lagi this movie reminded of something that my ex-boss said

“A job is just a job, the worst thing that could happen is you get fired but family and life are another different thing that cannot be compromised”

Which is true , I have met many people who put their work as their priority rather than family/life. Tiap-taip hari pergi kerja, balik lambat, weekends pon kerja, festive season pon kerja.

Yes money is important, I agree but I there are other things that are more important. Yet sadly, how many of us realised that?

If you don’t get what I mean or perhaps have a different opinion, try to watch this movie. Aku macam tersentak and macam biasa termenangis. Heh.

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