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Note: This entry might contains some sensitive elements

I’ve been wanting to write but was caught up in doing something else. I even tak sempat to reply your comments but I promise I’ll do it. Just bear with me ok.

Actually I wanted to write about my trip to Cameron Highlands tapi for now aku takde mood sebab gambar aku masa trip tu semua adalah tembam. Dah photoshop pon macam gagal. So itu aku hold dulu, lepas aku apply lipstick tiruan dekat gambar tu maybe aku akan reconsider.

Anyway, as I am writing aku, I am suffering from kebengkakan vagina due to UTI. Benci ok, selalu gila kene benda ni. But this time it was inevitable since my v is very sensitive – I went for a pap smear the day before.

It was not actually pap smear merelylah, I also underwent a series of test. Yang sangat menakutkan. Kalau ikut hati aku ni, tak hingin aku nak pergi but I was advised by my doctor dan dia telah Berjaya menyaiko aku when I told her I don’t think it was necessary.

Apa yang menakutkan?

Pengambilan darah sebanyak 3 tube. I know some of you might say, eleh bukannya banyak pon but hoh, the idea seeing a needle poking my skin dan darah masuk ke dalam tube adalah ngeri. Dahla darah aku macam degil, tak nak keluar, kene tunggu lama baru nak keluar.

:(

Sakit ok.

I did not realize how hard I genggam my tangan, lepas dah kluar baru aku sedar, tapak tangan aku berbekas dek kene cengkaman kuku.

Berbekas

Itu ngeri tapi tak sengeri cerita lepas ni.

Sekali nurse tu panggil masuk dalam satu bilik. I saw a petticoat on a bed [ala katil dekat klinik untuk baring tu la]

“Tukar kain ye, bukak sluar. Sluar dalam pon bukak”

I was like haaaa? Bukak seluar dalammm?

Ok, takpe aku bukak jugalah, lepas tu dia suruh baring. Aku pon baring sambil berfikir, apsalla nak kene baring bagai . Gila bangang aku ni kan, clueless gila. Seriesly I have no idea what was going to happen.

Tiba-tiba doctor datang and suruh spread the legs.

Wtffffffffffffffff laaaaaaaaaaaaaa, aku dahla tak pakai spender niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Kau jangan buat camnilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

“Jangan segan ye Sharina, saya nak cek ni”

Manala aku tak segan, lepas je dia cakap macam tu, nurse tu pergi bukak lampu untuk suluh pulakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

Apakahhhhhhhhhhhh okkkkkkk.

Masa ni aku macam.. fuckla.. memangla aku suka bogel tapi bukan begini ok. Jangan suluh-suluhla, there’s nothing to see.

“ Ok, jangan angkat punggung, I am going to insert something, it won’t be painful but there will be a slight discomfort”

What something? Apakah something itu? Tell me. Tell meee

Dari posisi berbaring I saw her holding something that looked like spatula yang kepalanya agak weird, macam bentuk sudip cake or something. As she put on her gloves aku punya lutut dah mengigil.

Habislaaaaaahhh akuuuu. Kenapalah I agreed to go for this thing at the first place?

Luckily the doctor was very gentle and she knew how to take away my fear, setiap kali dia buat something she will tell me, sebagai contoh “ok, sekarang I am going to twist this thing to 360 degress..bla..blaa” so aku takdela rasa sengal sangat.

It was not painful tapi macam dia cakaplah, ada a slight discomfort.

Yang kiutnyalast sekali dia cakap

“Good Sharina, very brave and your v is very healthy [wtfla kan?]”

I still have to wait for the proper result though, the nurse said she will call me once the result is ready. I hope everything will be ok.

Tapikan, aku punyalah jakun + happy sebab dah Berjaya melalui pap smear yang ngeri.

Cuma tulah.

Hari ni aku dapat that bloody UTI. Sakit ok, rasa macam kene rogol dengan 10 orang [macamlah pernah kene rogol pon kan]

Hopefully besok dah baik, tak tahanlah asyik terkepit je. Tak suka tau!

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Ok.

Seriesly aku tak paham dengan orang yang mengorat wife/husband orang. Dulu ada someone yang aku kenal cakap dia flattered bila ada lelaki mengorat dia, despite dah tahu dia dah kawen.

Flattered ke? Aku rasa marah dan disgusted adelah kot.

Walaupun agak rindukan zaman remaja riang ria, but I do see marriage as a sacred thing. Once you made your decision to be with someone like for ever, you have to honour that decision.

Oklah, maybe certain people don’t believe in marriage but knowing the person yang kau nak ngorat tu does, can you show a little respect?

One of the most important thing in marriage is trust. And ada orang despite dah lama kawen, tahap trust dia masih gigil-gigil. Bukan senang nak trust orang ni. Macam akula, diri sendiri pon aku tak trust diri sendiri kadang-kadang apakan lagi orang lain kan. Jadi bila orang dah trust kau tu, pandai-pandailah make sure trust tu tak hilang.

Jadi bila ada seorang lelaki yang bermati-matian nak mengorat despite knowing you are married, sungguh aku rasa keji. I mean dalam konteks ni, happily married or takde masalah kene blasah or kene share kote dengan pelacur lorong atau volunteer whoreslah kan.

I mean what type of person is this?

Kau dah tahu orang tu dah berkahwin boleh la plak kau nakkkkkkkkk gak ajak2 romen, dating or mengisi masa dia yang kosong. Apa jenis cibai kau ni?

Tak perlula kau nak kesah dia kesunyian ke, tak dapat beli beg 45 juta ringgit ke, tak ada anak ke. That is not your fucking problem, ok?

Don’t this type of person has some respect [walaupun kecik] towards the person yang dia nak ngorat, the partner and even marriage institution? Tapi yang paling penting, kau takde self respect ke?

Kalau yang mengorat tu perempuan, finela lelaki boleh kawen lebih satu kan walaupunnnnnnnnnn motif kau nak kawen dengan laki orang? Adakah kau balu? Perempaun terniaya atau apa? Ni dari segi moral mungkinla keji tapi lain-lain tu masih boleh.

Tapi kalau lelaki mengorat wife orang?

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Cinta perempuan gila

by chics on 29 October 2009 · 14 comments

in crap, keji thought, life, relationship

After so long not talking to him, we chatted on ym. Sekarang ntah apa angin aku ym balik, sengal kot.

So anyway he was telling me that he is having trouble in his relationship and the fact that the girlfriend also doesn’t like me.

One comment on his fb by me asking

“Are you ok?”

Telah menyebabkan dia mengamuk sakan padahal she was seeing another guy at the first place. She also despice him for talking about me.

Aku tampar kau kang nak? Aku dah kawan dengan dia before kau kenal dia lagi so motifffffffffffffff nak mengamuk bagai? Ade ke aku tulis i love you, i miss you ke apa? Series aku tak paham manusia begini, nak suruh boyfriend kau jadi kera sumbang ke apa?

So anyway, he was telling me the girl was seeing someone else who is younger than her despite diorang dah nak kawen. And many problems and arguments followslah.

So when this guy wants to talk she will say she’s tiredla, busylah, tak nak cari gaduhla itula inilah. Ajak jumpa pon macam tula but she got energy and time for other stuff.

Which  make my friend feel so sad especially when he has give his best effort.

She told him that she chose him nak teruskan kahwin but at the same time still layan the other guy. Beramas mesra on fb bagailah.

Apa masalahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh perempaun macam niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii?

Maybe that friend of mine pon ada salah but kan ke dia dah nak try to make things better. Kau ingat senang ke nak carik lelaki yang nak tolerate perangai kau and sayang kau?

Inilah yang aku namakan perempaun gila suka buat benda bukan-bukan sebab nak attention. Bila lelaki pujuk-pujuk kau cakap rimassssssssssssss, menyemakk , give me some space tapi bila lelaki tu macam rileks-rileks kau cakap you memang tak sayang I, you tak usaha ponnnnn.

Camana nak usaha if you doesn’t want to co-operate at all?

Like WTF?

Sebenarnya you just want everything to be about you kan?

Suka orang susah hati pasal kau, suka nak tengok orang tergila-gila dekat engkau. As if you are the goddess of the goddesseslah macam tu.

saiko

Hoh!

Jangan buat macam nilah, you are not sweet sixteen anymore. Dah tua dah, tak cute dah buat perangai macam tu.

Aku pun suka gak nak mengada-ngada tapi agak-agakla janganla sampai menyakitkan hati orang yang kau claim kau sayang.

Kalau tak nak, cakap jela tak nak jangan cakap nak tapi buat macam tak nak.

Lagipun the boyfriend of yours tu pon manusia biasa, sabar dia berbatas.

Masa tu nyesal pon tak guna ok?

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