MR A likes you, you like him too. MR A loves you, you accept his love. Not that you don’t love MR A but no as much as you love MR B, who is either
a) Your crush
b) Your ex
So why be with MR A instead of MR B?
There are few possibilities here. Since I am fighting my menstrual pain, I will spend some time explaining supaya aku tak terasa sakit sangat. I miss writing crap anyway.
Ok, why?
- MR B is a jerk, pengote, asshole, etc
- MR B belongs to someone [if you are a snatcher, this option is not for you]
- MR B is a nice guy but both of you broke up and there’s no way the two of you getting back together. Reasons? Macam-macamlah.
- MR A is able to provide you the comfort that you need; money, caring, attentive, bla..bla..
- MR is nice. Not sleazy, not taking any advantage, basically a person who really respect youlah as a woman.
MR A sounds perfect while MR B is..tsk..tsk.. next to disaster.
So you choose MR A hoping to be happy. Well, you are, finally I found someone who appreciates me, you said. But then.. Why am I feeling that something is missing? Kenapa bila malam-malam, aku toleh ketepi kepada MR A, aku terasa sayu dalam hati? Bukanke aku supposedly rasa tenteram dan aman dan berbunga-bunga chenta?
You might not know the answer until the day you accidentally stumble upon MR B. Immediately your heart leap and somehow you feel flushed. Macam, zupp, darah naik ke kepala. And the feeling..the feeling that has been missing is there.
The feeling of getting flattered, the feeling of idiocy for smiling too wide till your cheeks hurt and the feeling of “oh-my-god-aku-nampak-dia!!”
Maybe some will say, kalau dah kau suka sangat dekat MR B tu, kau pegi jelah dekat dia. As easy as it sounds. Yes you can, hati kau memang berbunga-bunga girang bila dia membalas lirikan mata, bila dia pegang tangan kau and kiss slow-slow or even bila dia introduce kau as someone special. Those, will be perfect because he is the one who your heart want. The problem rise when he is not the right person for you.
How can he be the right person for you, to take care of you and your little heart when he is busy
a) womanising
b) ignoring you emotional demands when you are really in need
c) menghadapi masalah nak decide mana satu nak pilih yang aku gerenti akan turut membuatkan kau berasa sangat lanchau.
d) not doing his part to make the relationship work
Yes, you can say, there might a light at the end of the tunnel. Ok, you can repeat that like 1000000² times to yourself but then again will you still survive with unbroken wings by the time you reach the end of the tunnel? It upon kalaula there’s light kan.
Sometimes, you can’t just listen to your heart.
If you have at least a little feeling for MR A, why not give him a chance to love you and also a chance for yourself to be appreciated. You deserve all the care and attention after all. Let the small feeling nurtured to something bigger.
For all you know, one day, while lying you turn to him and take a deep look at his face and said to yourself
“I just can’t do without you by my side”







