January 2012

Kembali membola

by chics on Tuesday, 31 January 2012 - 9 am · 3 comments

in teteks

The last time I played futsal was 5 years ago, I think during Srikandi tournament.

After that I got lazy plus I pancit badly also.

 

But 2 weeks ago I started playing again with the girls I started playing with and this was before gol & gincu.

I thought I would really go pancit, I did pancit-ed but not as bad as I expected. It was different though, sebab halfway mumies terpaksa keluar padang menenangkan anak masing-masing. Hahaha

It was fun!

 

Look how happy I was!

 

And how I missed playing, not that aku Gerrard ke apa [WTF?] but I do enjoy the game and playing with the right people is one more thing.

Dulu masa study, dalam 2-4 kali jugalaklah we played and I didn’t remember feeling tired. And there was time when we played campur with the guys, selalunya diorang kasi canla hehehe. Apa nak buat aku insan yang lemah, hanya mampu berserahhh.

 

Latest version.

 

Diorang ni walaupun dah jadi emak but still can do, still boleh rembat.

Di sebabkan sexcited akan main once or twice a month, I went and buy a pair of futsal boots.

Tapi kena pakai saiz kanak-kanak because my size tak available for adults. Sadddd but the good thing is, kids shoes are cheaper, like half the price, which I like alsolah.

 

Dasar cheapskate hihi.

 

So expect more of me on the futsal pitch.

 

Macam sial je statement kau ingat kau artissss?

Haha

 

P/S. Photo credit to Kuman’s facebook.

P/P/S. Asal sexercise je mesti tetek aku basah, lactating ke apa? Sheesh.

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You have to choose

by chics on Sunday, 29 January 2012 - 8 pm · 3 comments

in deep thinking

Have you ever been in a situation where you know the person is not right for you but you still stay?

What makes it worst the person tried their best to detach themselves from you but you could just not see it. Maybe you could but your stubborn heart still keep saying you can’t let go because if you do, you wouldn’t know what will happen to you.

If I think about it, it is sad, really.

Sad because you are belittling yourself and you keep lying to yourself that things will get better eventually.

And there will be some moments when things are really magical and you though, it is worth it.

 

It is actually an insult to your dignity, your pride. You try to honour them with all your heart but the favour was never returned. And when there are moment when you actually find out that person is really unsure of his feeling for you until the extent letting other souls know either in a dignified way or by telling monstrous tales about you, you still want to hang on with the smallest hope you have.

 

Darling, if someone does not know how to respect your dignity, you better leave – that’s what I always say.

 

But then, walking away without turning back is one of the hardest thing to do. Walking to an empty space where darkness awaits, where your heart will break into pieces and blown away by the wind.

 

So you have to choose; between your pride and your heart.

 

Perhaps one day, you will find the courage.

 

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Fake and skeptical.

by chics on Friday, 27 January 2012 - 9 pm · 4 comments

in deep thinking

I avoided talking to strangers on IM for as long as I can remember but yesterday I changed it. I talked to someone new. Well not really new, he has been trying to make a conversation with me since tak ingat bila bila I keep ignoring because..well I just don’t feel like talking to strangers.

So we started all over again and we talked.

Halfway I realised I sounded like a fake.

I mean, the facts about me don’t make sense.

Ok, first I only have half of my face on the IM. And then I told him I am self employed, tapi adalah post grad from comms line and masa degree belajar A.I.

My first job was at a recruitment company, and now I am a baker.

Like WTH? Betul ke kau ada semua paper qualification semua tu tapi last-last keje masak kek je dekat rumahhhhhhhhh?

 

I haven’t traveled much –  have not been to UK, Australia, China bla..blaa but went to Sri Lanka and Maldives.

My father worked outside of the country and one of them is Papua New Guinea.

 

Semua macam nak exotic dan tak masuk akal je kan, nampak nau menipuuuu.

 

But the things is, they were not fibs at all.

 

 

You know, the moment when someone reply I see or Ic so many times indicates that either he is bored with you or occupied with something else. I learn to pick this up while talking to my exes online.

 

So when the other person keep replying the same notation, I couldn’t help thinking, am I that boring? Or is it because he think I am a fake?

 

It could be I am boring – especially when I refused to tell him my vital stats [ why would anyone want to know about my vital stat anyway? Ini bukan pertandingan dewi remaja!] But I didn’t think I was a bore during that conversation so perhaps it was because he thought I was a fake.

 

Or maybe dia rasa menyampah dekat aku sebab asal je dia tulis Wow aku akan cakap eh takdela, nothing extraordinary. Nampak macam celaka sebab konon-konon aku nak low profile.

Masalahnya, memangla takde yang extraordinary pun so aku cakapla betul-betul. Lainla kalau aku angkasawan ke apa [ini pun, kalau aku dah jadi angkasawan mesti aku rasa ala takde apa sangat. Ewah cakappp, cuba jadi sikit, satu shah alam kau canang]

 

Anyway, this made me think. Maybe dalam dunia ni banyak sangat orang menipu sampai we cannot differentiate anymore between the truth and deception. We tend to be more skeptical. Sampai kadang-kadang benda yang depan mata pun kita masih nak skeptical.

I know I am one of them.

It is sad if I think about it.

But then again,kalau tak skeptical, hati sendiri yang cedera, bukan begitu?

 

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