2010

Tres

by chics on Tuesday, 23 November 2010 - 1 am · 36 comments

I am feeling shitty the moment I am typing this.

Because today is 23 November. 3 years ago I was married to the guy who was courageous enough to love and share his life with me for who I am, pyscho or not.

I know sayang, that it is not easy to love me especially when I had to go through some depression and constantly in foul mood.

And I know I am not a good wife [leave alone a dream wife]. I rarely clean the house, I don’t do laundry and sometimes you have to really take some time to explain stuff to me because I am not that bright.

And there were times when I hurt you a lot.

But despite what happened, you stayed with me.

This year there will be no kisses, no hugs and no dinner. I have never feel so alone but it’s ok because I know you are doing the best for the both of us.

Happy anniversary, I will pray that this number 3 will bring us more happiness and less turbulence.

And tonight I will imagine you are lying next to me.

♥

Tagged as: Anniversary

36 comments

Chenta tiga segi- Skype, dia dan saya.

by chics on Monday, 22 November 2010 - 1 am · 20 comments

in crap,jiwang

I know I rarely talk about my relationship [tanak ngaku dah kawen tu haha] because I don’t want you bunnies to vomit blood while nanah drip from your brain but somehow lately dalam hati aku tumbuh taman so adalah tak dapat menahan getaran di dada. Jadi brace youself untuk hari ini dan akan datang :P

I rarely use skype. Reason being I don’t have many friends there plus, I am quite lazy to talk to people even on fb or ym. Even if I use it, chat biasa je without the camera.

They were few people [perverts mostly] asked me to get a camera but I don’t see the necessity of it.

But I bought a couple few months back [I bought but he paid hehehe].

One for me [red of course] and one in green for bedmate so that while he is away I could still talk to him face to face.

The thing is, he was without a laptop on the first week so adalah susah mahu menggunakan webcam because if he wanted to, he had to borrow his friend’s laptop which is err.. tak nakla. Seganla kan.

We only talked on the phone the whole week. Although it was a daily basis thingy but I still feel so taik. At night I will roll over to his side on the bed for a while just to capture his smell, berhati- hati ok aku tak nak tido situ takut bau dia halang.

Cacat gila.

I thought that would help but no. Feeling menjadi semakin taik sebab kadang-kadang bau, kadang-kadang tak bau. Bau kucing aku pulak. Bodohhh punya Ah Beng, brapa kali kakak cakap, jangan tidur situu. Degilll kannnn. Eiii

Anyway, after he settled in, we managed to skype, with web cam.

It was only for an hour tapi it was enough to make me smile wide-wide. At least I felt as if he was here. Ada sometimes tu, tak bercakap pun. Masing-masing buat hal sendiri. He was doing his work and I was err playing my games but seeing each other on the screen was enough.

It felt like as if dia balik rumah macam biasa, online depan aku dengan muka berkerut buat kerja.

Cuma

Boleh tengok tak boleh pegang. So close yet so far. Ye la kan, sebagai seorang penggatal I like to pegang-pegang but then cannot.

Tapi takpe. Kompol.Kompollll points biar menjadi haba pendam pemeluwapan. Sabar chics. Sabaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar.

When you say goodbye, you come back to reality

The first time I had to say goodbye on webcam, I cannot than to cry knowing I will be alone again. Now, he dislike to see my cry and I dislike to show how weak and vulnerable I am ¹ so I really tahan-ed my tears when we were still online.

Lepas dah cakap bye, I click the x button. By then I coudn’t hold it anymore but it was ok, I thought. Nobody will know.

But I was wrong.

Tetibe dengar suara

“Don’t cry love”

Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Camanala boleh kantoi ni?

I didn’t say anything, I just logout.

But other than that, skype is just great. It’s free and you get to talk face to face with the one you are talking to. Tak ada rasa sunyi[sangat] lagi.

Oleh itu, saya chenta Skype!

Ye tapi lepas tu aku tulis dekat sini haha ↩

Tagged as: face-to-face, skype

20 comments

Bloodpack – vampire hunt

by chics on Friday, 19 November 2010 - 12 am · 2 comments

in crap,review

I think some of you bunnies know how much I love mousehunt [love it until I get anxious if I can't press the horn button :P]

But now, I have another game that add to my anxiety if I can’t access the Internet.

Bloodpack.

bloodpack

Game memburu vampire. So edward and bella fan, mungkinkah anda mahu main game ni? Hehe

I have tried many games but I have to say, I am more drawn to the hunting-game-type like MH and Bloodpack [BP] happened to be one.

One cool feature on bloodpack, you change avatar. So if you cas feeling nak rambut blond, rambut panjang, you can just click under My Daywalker and click edit avatar.

Pilihh-pilihh nak mana

Playing is easy. Just go to the application at http://www.facebook.com/bloodpackgame and click go to application lepas tu tekan the hunt button

And then you have to wait for the next round which take about +-15. Kenapakah ada plus minus? Sebab ada extra features :)

Satu. Regen capsules. Kalau ada regen capsules, you can shorten the time. If you look at mine dah zero sebab aku dah guna semua haha. Vampires akan drop regen ni

Dua. Depends on boosters.Ini nanti cerita.

Disebabkan ini adalah game memburu vampire, so bait dia pun kenelah berbentuk ke arah vampire jugak kan. Kalau kau letak bait carrot, mana reti vampire nak datang [ini lawak celaka mana pulak kau buat ni chics?]

Berbagai jenis darah

You have to buy the blood though, cuma masa mula-mula memangla dia kasi free.

Weapons pon sama jugak, yang sesuaiii untuk memburu vampire, time traps [nanti cerita], travel item and salah satu feature yang penting boosters

Boosters are also dropped by vampires tapi ada jugak yang kita boleh assemble sendiri, macam hegemony ruby tu. Macam nama dia, boosters is to boost your strenght.

Selain boosters, weapon and time trap pon boleh gather jugakkk.

Bilala nak complete niiii?

Azab ok nak tunggu bilala si vampire-vampire ni nak jatuhkan parts. But then that is the beauty of the game.

Currently, I am at the second stage or place called the Tube. Sebab game ni baru, so tak banyak lagi tempat dia but it will surely be expended soon.

Locations

Different type of vampires can be found at different place. Aku tengok wall orang lain kan, macam-macam jenis vampire diorang dapat. Tak sabarrrr!

You can browse all the vampires yang ada dekat sesuatu tempat under Vampire List

Ada 2 hantu special - Halloween limited :)

Satu lagi aku suka game ni apa tau, malam-malam boleh tidur, tak payah risau nak hunt vampire sebab dia ada TimeTrap feature.

You set a time trap [kene beli trime trap dia nila dekat kedai dia], equipped your bait and you are set. And you can ask your friends to join, lagi ramaii lagila banyak dapat vampire.