I am in the midst of reading The Memory Keeper’s Daughter, bought it somewhere last week because of the interesting synopsis. Only knew it’s also a motion picture lepas aku beli buku tu , kalau aku tahu awal-awal mungkin tak beli. I don’t know why, I won’t buy a book kalau cerita dia dah ditranslate into a movie. No specific reason, just don’t like.
Anyway, have yet to finish because can’t really spend a time to read the whole book sekali harung [macam bagus je ayat ni, poyo gila busynya, padahallllllllllllllll].
Tadik masa mandi sempat baca, sebab berendam buku tu dah macam tak straight kene air :( . Sedihla tapi suka sebab suka rendam sambil baca.
Anyway, that’s not my point. I came to a part when the mother, Nora Henry said that she felt somewhat tak suka when people come to her house and hold her baby. Dia rasa macam tak sukalah, macam jangan pegang anak aku boleh?
Is this normal? I asked because I always feel bad not cuddling my friends baby. Yelakan, everybody will fuss over the baby, kissing and cuddling but I will only sengih-sengih and will feel bad about it later. What if my friends terasa hati sebab aku tak tunjuk aku suka anak dia ke apa? As if I don’t like to cuddle the baby to show how much I am happy to have them around?
The truth is:-
a) I don’t really like babies. If they cry I will panic and not know what to do.
b) How the fuckla to hold baby? Aku tak reti ok. Tangan nak letak camana? Will the baby feel comfortable in my awkward embrace?
c) What if masa aku dukung aku terrrjatuhkan baby tu and he or she has permanent damage? Bloody scaryyyyyy
Please don’t say
“Kalau tak reti masa nila nak kene belaja. Sampai bila nak takut”
because I will have to asnwer you by saying
“Bila aku ada anak nanti aku belajarla. Kalau anak aku nangis ke, terbalik ke sebab aku buat, I will not feel so guilty or takut because it’s my kid.”
The weird thing is, I feel the same [tak suka] when people touch my cats. Kalau yang rapat takpela kot, macam tetek ke tapi kalau anak-anak kawan mak aku datang ke, tah sapa-sapa datang ke lepas tu nak ambik and gomol kucing-kucing aku, I feel my blood boiling.
Rasa macam hoiiiiiiiiiiii, can’t you see that cat is struggling because she/he doesn’t like you and even if he/she is not, please don’t touch sesuka hati. Perangai yang buruk tapi suka akulaaaa, kucing aku.
Back to babies, kadang-kadang aku kesian jugak bila tengok baby kene gomol, mesti dia macam lemas. But I don’t knowlah whether the mother likes it or not, ramai nampak macam flattered je.
But who knows underneath the flattery tersimpan didihan kan.
Mungkinkah ramai yang macam Nora Henry?
