Last night was one the night that I dreamed of something dreadful – he left me for someone else yang aku tak nampak mukanya.
It happened in an overnight, he just told me he didn’t love me anymore and left just like that.
To make it worst, the male members of my family thinks it’s ok, my ayah even said
“Takpelah, at least he’s happy and you’ll manage”
As if it was not a big deal.
I was soooo fking angry that I grabbed a baseball bat and hit him[ayah] berkali-kali!
Anak siapala nii yang saiko niiiii?
Anyway, I woke up after that to a very thirsty mouth and could not sleep, I was feeling very angry albeit it was only a dream sampailah his alarm clock for sahur berbunyi. He wears the apron when it comes to sahur.
I told him about the dream and he gave me an expressionless face. I also asked him, did he ever dream of such dream before?
“Neverlah. I only dream of fighting battles in some wars. I am a soldier and sometimes I fight in old century’s war sometimes the new ones”
Whatttttttttttttttttttttt? What kind of dream is that? Siapakah yang selalu mimpi main askar-askar?
So I was thinking, kenapa aku suka mimpi macam ni.
Adakah kerana aku insecure dan penjeles?
I have to say I am penjeles although he said I am not, maybe little bit of insecurity.
But you know kadang-kadang aku rasa jeles, insecure cuma semua tu akan menjadi satu benda at the end of the day – anger.
Scenario one
The was this lady that keep calling Swirly. She works in the same office as his. Aku tak tahulah apa masalahnya but she sort of get herself trapped in heated office arguments.
So, untuk mengadu and mintak tolong, he will call Swirly. Masalahnyaaaaaaaa dia call tak kira masa dan tempat. Tetengah orang beramas mesra pon nak call haih?
Now I don’t think they are having any sort of affair ke apa sebab I was always there when she called and let me tell you, I am very very good in detecting any kind of pengoterism. Judging from his body language and tone, he’s not [at least for now haha]
Aku tak suka perempuan ni asyik call. Not because she is a threat, no tapi sebab apa ke halllllllllll kau nak call selalu ni? Mat tempe pergi vacation pon kau nak callllllllll mengadu masalah? Kalau cakap sekejap takpe, ni haa orang dah bagi hint pon kau tanak letak gak.
Aku ni ha, nak call dia dekat office pon pikir 35 kali coz I know he doesn’t like to be interrupted while he’s working. If I called, I’ll make it a short one.
And whenever he’s on vacation – sometimes he went back to his hometown alone, aku akan budget dulu bila nak call. Tak nakla kacau dia tengah keluar dengan family ke apa.
It’s like, wahh kau siapa dapat imuniti ni? Don’t you have respect for people privacy and time?
I did not tell her off though sebab ala macam hal kecik je and aku pon takdela maki mat tempe, I just let him know that I don’t like it.
Masalahnya aku confuse, am I being jealous or am I just being angry?
Scenario two
Ah Beng, the cat pantang bila nampak aku bermanja. When both of us are alone without each other company dia takdela mengada sangat but when both of us are together, makan ke, sandar-sandar ke whateverlah, he will lompat sometimes in between us dan mengada-ngada mintak manja.
Like last night, lepas mimpi tu aku adalah berasa taik dan nak memeluk untuk berasa di sayangi [padahal orang tu tido haram tak ingat aku haha] tapii bila aku pusing tetibe ade seekor makhluk berbulu in between me and him.
Tak suka ok, kau jangan merampas kasih sayang aku boleh tak?
Hehe, tetibe aku gelak sebab aku rasa aku sedikit saiko.
Anyway, he’s always like that and sometimes I will feel annoyed.
Adakah aku jeles dengan kucing aku sendiri? Apakah makna kejelasan ini?
Does this make me jealous person or I am just angry?
He on the other hand, only showed his jealousy once – itu pun masa sebelum we were together, zaman aku lepas bebas sukati akula nak kluar dengan siapa. Other than that, tak pernah. Sampai kadang-kadang aku musykil dia ni manusia ke android?
When I told him, he should feel jealous once in a while sebab bak kata orang lama, cemburu tu tandanya sayang [hihi] plus I told him aku rasa tak disayangi bila dia macam tak kesah [rasa nak lempang tak?], he said
“Love has no condition, it should not comes with other things. Love is just..love”
Tapi aku tau dia ni mesti tipu, mesti sebenarnya dia jeles. Ya ini adalah ayat penyedap hati
Anyway I told him, if one day I ever found it he cheat on me or he leave me for someone else, I will get a baseball bat and hit him.
Sambil memasukkan roti dalam mulut dia berkata
“Hehe baseball bat is difficult to get here, get a hockey stick insteadla, lagi senang”
Bolehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?
p/s: Tetibe aku rasa takde kaitan mimpi aku dengan jeles hehehe.
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