Now that we are living on our own, we brought all of our cats with us, including the queen -MJ. When I took her, she was sleeping terkangkang on emak’s bed, next to emak. I told emak I am taking her but I guessed she was too mamai.
Initially I wanted to leave MJ there but knowing she will wait patiently in front of my door, will lie down waiting for someone to let her in, I decided to bring her. Cuma I think it’s cruel to force her to adapt to a new environment. Still, tak bawak kang aku rindu dan aku tahu dia tetap akan tunggu depan pintu bilik aku, akan baring atas katil sambil tunggu aku datang usap dia.
The three of them, Ah Beng, Ah Lian and MJ now is living together, just the three of them. For the other two cats, they managed to adapt quickly, malam-malam dah tidur terkangkang atas katil. But not MJ. She was still scared and homesick perhaps.
She didn’t even want to leave her carrier. The whole night, she hid under the curtain, which ada bau rumah lama.
Oh how my heart break seeing her like that. I am feeling like a rotten person for kidnapping her from her queen-ness.
Why did you do this to me kakak?
Yesterday emak sms me whenever she’s fasting, the usual sms “Balik rumah makan tak? Mak masak bla..bla..”
Obviously she wanted me to come over so I did. We had dinner and we talked. An then she said something that made my heart nearly stopped
“Mak tidur dengan dia, bila bangun mak cari dia tak jumpa. Mak tanya ayah, ayah cakap awak dah ambik. Mak tiba-tiba rasa macam nak menangis. It’s like she’s another human, I feel so lonely”
Mata aku dah bergenang, because
a) she felt lonely
b) I took away her peneman especially knowing that my dad will be off to wherever he’s supposed to go soon
Instead I managed to sengih-sengih. Aku memang macam ni, I don’t know how to show my affection – some people always interpreted I am so kasar and hati batu. Trust me, hati batu is the last thing I was born to be.
So I told him, give it a week, if MJ is still like that and my mum still rindu her, probably I’ll send her back. Or else, every weekla aku kene angkut dia balik. I don’t mind that, just that I don’t want to confuse her [MJ, I mean]
See lah how.
Fuckla, now that everybody is sleeping, I’ve got no one to bitch to. Tsk
Woi bangunla MJ, marilah kita mengumpat makcik belakang ni [tak kenal tak hapa tetibe nak mengumpat haha]
Ok dah tu je.
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