I was inspired to write after reading an fb status by my classmate, Nazrin – the abang DJ
Cintailah cinta, kalau anda kehilangan cinta, yakinlah itu adalah umpama kehilangan sesuatu yang amat perkasa
He seldom talks, tapi kalau dia bercakap it’s either berisi atau menikam hati – boleh tahan pedih gak ayat mamat ni ok. Ini takde kene mengena but he named his second son as Gibran. Oh I love that name! Reminded me of Kahlil Gibran andd automatically reminded me of him.
Love.
Such a simple word.
Yet it could change you in a split second. One moment you can be the happiest person alive and other moment you could be the deadest person [or wish to be]
I have lost a love once. And when I said that it does not only mean my love towards that someone that I love.
That time, I even lost the feeling of love towards my self.
I tried no to think about it anymore yet when I read what he wrote it made me feel sad, it brought the memory back.
Not because I lost that someone but because despite the fact that I thought my life didn’t not mean anything anymore, despite I feel that I didn’t need to love myself anymore, someone who has been been watching from her distance all this while came to me and reminded that I did not lose any love at all.
I was lying on my bed, lifelessly and I was thinking why do I feel like the world has crumble and how am I supposed to jump and smile again?
If I could just sooth my heart that time, it would not hurt that much. It was because of the hurt, my whole body failed to function. My brain just wish to.. stop thinking.
And then she came.
She hugged me and she said
“Please don’t do this to yourself. I love you so much. In fact I have been loving you for 25 years, Please don’t take away that love.”
She was my mother.
And despite all my flaws, she has never stopped loving me.
It is such a shame that I thought I lost a love but the truth is, I did not.
How can I not see?
I still have it with me and even when she won’t be around anymore, I know, I will never lose that love.
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