Hello wassap, wassappppppppp. Hari ni wa nak crita pasal tempat tinggal wa, shah alam yang indah. Chantek gila wa cakap lu, jem pon takde.Pendek kata agak layanla jugak.

Seksyen wa tinggal lagi cun wa cakap lu. Sini rempit memang takde nye. Semua hommies memang kool-kool lah. Aman damai, bersih. Kalau setakat lu nak jogging pagi-pagi memang tade hal punyelah.

Tapi kejadian semalam memang buat wa hanginlah. Lu bayangkanlah, wa nak pegi teman mother wa pegi bank sekali wa prasan cermin dekat side mirror seblah kiri sudah hilang. Wa ingat adik wa yang langgar, tak pon mother wa ke. Mother wa tu gelupur sikit bila bawak kete, macam wa la. Semua wa nak langgar. Hehe.

Ok. Berbalik pada story wa tadi, sekali mother wa cakap cermin seblah kanan pon hilanglah jugak. Wa buat sedikit deep thinking, wah ini bukan accident tapi ini sudah kene kopak. Sekali wa cek-cek awning kreta sudah hilanglah pulak.

Wa nak tuduh endon sebab wa memang benci endon. Suka cilok sluar dalam dan bra gua dan suka cilok suami orang tapi wa rasa bukanlah. Sebab endon tak mainla cilok cermin side mirror. Ini mesti keje mat fit ni. Wa tau sangat. Mat fit, kalau jumpa selimut buruk pon nak jual. Yelah, kete mother wa bolehla di kategorikan dalam besi buruk , jadi wa rasa takde hasil pon.

Ini wa ingat shah alam memang dah tak aman lagi. Sikit hari wa rasa kucing-kucing wa pon mungkin kene cilok. Kalau derang curik kucing wa, memang wa tak bagi muka nyer. Tiba-tiba wa teringat cerita boss wa. Dulu boss wa ada tak suke sorang mamat ni, kerek gila. Tapi boss wa ni agak nerd jugakla. Mamat ni suke isap rokok kasik bakar boss wa. Sekali masa mamat tu melepak mana tah boss wa pegi amik taik kucing and masukkan dalam rokok mamat tu, ganti dengan tembakau. Haha. Wa rasa taik kucing kering boleh buat orang highla, pasal boss wa cakap mamat tu layannn je rokok taik kucing kering.

Tadi sebelum wa crite pasal taik kucing, sebenanya wa macam ada satu point, tapi sekarang wa macam rasa dah terkeluar topik.Kalau lu genius, lu kaitkanlah sendiri.

Kesimpulannya, mulai esok wa kene tutup pagar dan tak boleh kluar-kluar malam2 jalan-jalan dekat taman.Disebabkan wa letih nak menulis dalam bahasa mat fit, wa rasa wa nak blah. Apa-apahal, kalau wa jumpa mat fit tu memang wa hentak!!

Echeh.

Wa choww dulu bebbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb.

Last week chloe [ermm.. she's a laptop] was sick coz I think I teropen an email yang berisi brontox. Hello, tak comel ok hanta emel ada brontox. Adalah menyusahkan aku sahaja. Kesian chloe dan kesian chics. Anyway, I can’t seemed to log on to my window and was totally upset coz I had to deliver something important and the file was in the hard disk but luckily I had a copy of it in my thumb drive.

Uda asked me to hanta to hp center tapi haih, aku manalah reti nak pegi damansara itu, jalan semantan itu so I went to send chloe to a shop near my house.

I told the abang that chloe used some different hard disk but dia ingat aku main-main agaknye, pasal tula besok tu dia telefon and cakap tak boleh siap dalam satu hari sebab dia baru sedar dia takde adapter for that type of had disk.

Finela.
Aku sabar.

The next day I called and he said dah siap tapi bila aku datang tak siapp lagi. By this time he was more frinedly and started to ask me questions such as ” awak dulu belajar jb ye?”,” kerja dekat mana”

Awak belajar dekat jb ye? Sah-sah he went through my pictures file. Demmit. Adakah gambar-gambar terlampau aku simpan disitu? Not that I can think of.

That night, my boss called asking me did I log on to an account of his which is money related yesterday. I told him, I did but that was two days ago and not yesterday.

He told me someone tried to acess the account using different ip so, that ip was logged and was reported to him via email even that person got the login name and password right. There’s only 2 person who know the login name and the password which are my boss and me. Except, I put the information inside chloe.

And chloe was with that abang sengal.

Aku bukan nak tuduhla tapi siapa lagi ye tak?Password and login name tu punyela panjang. Dasar keji betul. Dahla tengok gamba aku, nak try acess account orang pulak. Macamanala melayu nak maju kalau berniaga macam lahanat?

The next day, my boss yangg angin telah menyoal abang sengal but he denied but he refused to look him at the eyes.

“Eh, bahaya tu, boleh siasat tu.”

Lancau engkaulah. Cakap jela engkau ynag buat, taik!. Kau ingat kitorang ni blaja tahap UPSR ke hoh?

When I got chloe back, a file of my picture is missing. Aku tataula missing sebab brontox ke apa tapi apahallak missing? Babilah. Habis semua gambar aku. Tapi nasib baiklah saya yang vain ini mempunyai copy gambar dirinya sendiri di mana-mana. Hihi.

Dahla sukati tuka nama chics to the matrix.

The matrix??

WTF la weyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

Haih. Moral of the story. Always back up your file and set password to every PNC file. And hantarlah pc anda ke servis center yang bertauliah.

Dan janganlah jadi sekeji abang itu.

Tiba-tiba I rasa ternoda.

You know. When I told that I needed excersice tiba-tiba ada seorang budak ynag dengan sesuka hati mengappointkan dirinya sebagai personal trainer ku. My door was knocked on beautiful saturday morning and I was dragged to go for a jog.

Tidakkah hari sabtu meropakan masa untuk tido di waktu pagi? [Walaupun tiada bezanya bagi ku sebenanyelah]

That’s not all. I wanted to have nasik lemak for breakfast but then I was told again and again that nasi lemak has lots of calories and lemaklah. Wahhhhhhhhhh

What is thisss?

Tetapi tidak mengapa… Kerana during the night, I had my chance to eat more than nasik lemak, celebrating nikkit’s birthday. Happy birthday yang!

Bunnies, last sunday was my sayang cinta hati’s birthday. So, wish her a happiest birthday ever okies?

Sigh. What is more precious than true friends?

More pictures here.

Lovely Monday bunnies!

Ok. It’s been a while since I had pasta minus the one that I had in Kuching. You know pasta with some appetizers. Okla fine. It’s been a while since I had Italian food. Since Ramadhan. Coz, who wants to eat Italian during Ramadhan anyway? Ok. I know some of you do so ehe..back to my story.

So two days ago I drag my company to have pasta at my favourite Italian restaurant but he decided to have 1901 instead. A new flavour of 1901 yang diclaim mempunyai rasa yang majestic tetapi akhirnya hanya rasa seperti cicah hot dog dalam kuah asam jawa. Heh. Thank God I stick to my aglio olio.

I guess my perut puaka is still berpuaka when I still crave for hot chocolate from starbuck. I mean, what do you aspect? It was raining that time, of coursela I need starbuck kan. Had a venti hot choc with some chips and talk shit all the way.

When it’s time to go I realised something. Gua sakit perut. Oh no, am I lactose intolerance? Sejak bilala? Setahu aku, aku hanyalah kari intolerance. But yes, there was a feeling yang perut bergelora dan terasa lemas seperti hendak muntah. This is not good. If I am really lactose intolerance, meaning aku akan terlepak nikmat dunia seperti memakan blue cheese dan meminum swiss miss chocolate. Apakahhh?

But all the persoalan terjawab when I got home and wanting to watch tv. I unbutton my jeans and … wallah tidak rasa sengal dan bergelora di perut lagi.

Barulah aku sedari.. aku bukannya lactose intolerance tetapi..jeans itu adalah ketat.

Aku adalah..buncit.

Fineeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I’ll start jogging tomorrow. You watch out..you gwen stephanie.. yeww…

But.. I think kan tak jadilah tomorrow sebab I baru wash my hair and ermm.. yew know..got like makan-makan this weekend. hehe.. Maybe next weekla hor?

Nway, enjoy your weekend bunnies.
Love you!

He was born in 1998 when his mother, Donna gave birth to 5 wonderful kitten. Out of that five he caught my eyes on the first look. He, yellow and fluffy and with a sweet face. I named him honey star because of his honey coated fur and the way he purred when I stroked him. I even called him motor bot coz his purring remind me of the sound of a motor bot engine. Loud and go straight to your heart.

Purrr.Bo..bott..purrr. Sweet

Yes, he was the apple of my eye. Every night, he would be the one who would share my pillow and put me to sleep with his sweet smell and loud purr. Just before I doze off, I would kiss his lemak tummy then only went to bed. At that time, I love honey star more than anything till the extent I pissed my ex off by telling him if I had to choose between him and honey star, without doubt I would choose honey star.

Because he never fails to love me and make my heart melt even after few hours of crying session.

I even write a will for him. Stupid but yes, I love him that much.

Things change when I brought MJ to Shah Alam, MJ being the cat who never been separated with me not more than few hours followed me like a tail everywhere I go which left no space for honey star. He started to act unpredictable and started to do naughty things to attract attentions. On my 25th birthday, he left me a big wound on my wrist that I had to receive a jab from a doctor.

But not like some cruel bastard, I never hit my cat left alone threw him from the fifth floor even the fact he littered on my bed or he tend to gave me more scars.

I still love him. Like I love him from the first day when he was born.

Last week, his health deteriorated. My mum said he might be suffering from leukemia and had no chance to survive. I cried the whole night after she told me that she might had to put him to sleep. But then, the vet said he doesn’t need to be put to sleep, few jabs will do to cure his jaundice and he’ll be fine.

I was so happy. Yeay, I thought.

We went to my grandma house and return the next day only to find honey star lying stiff in his cage. I panicked but thankful to see that he was still breathing. After given some advice from a friend I called the vet.

Me: You said he’ll be fine *quiver

She: Isn’t she?

Me: Hell no. Did you gave him an overdose jab?

She: Ermm.. Not really. Well. I tested to see how he would react to the jab.

At this point I feel like screaming. What do you mean by you tested? What do you think my cat is you stupid bitch?

Me: Well, obviously it didn’t work. He’s flat now.

She: Oh, so you want to bring him over and put him to sleep?

Me: No. I think he is better here.

Lancau engkaula.

I am not ready to let him go. I can’t let him go. I had him for 8 years and it was still not enough. I still want his stupid purr and stupid clawing. I still want my honey star. For days, I sacrificed my sleep just to feed him the 100 plus + vitagen mixture. I am so scared that he might go away that I checked his breathing every one hour.

On every feed, I told him he is a fighter and he can’t leave me because I.. I love him.

For few days he survived until two days ago his eyes were started to be filled with cuss. Honey star can’t no more see. And he can’t even move not even an inch but his heart was still beating.

Didn’t I tell you that he is a sweet cat? That really love me? And would try his best not to let me down? That’s what he did. Even he can’t hold it anymore he tried because he know I am not ready to let him go.

But how could I bare seing him like that? Lying motionless with a beating heart. How could I let him,the one who always soothed me when I cried after breaking up with stupid guys suffer. I can’t. I could pretend not to care and wait until someone dispose his body but I just can’t. Not me. I can’t even sleep thinking of him.

So yesterday..yesterday I gathered my guts and hug him tight. Probably my last hug. Although he still wants to fight but I want him to have his peace. It would be only fair.

I told the vet to put him to sleep, half choked, trying my best to control my tears. As she reached for the injection I excused my self and took a seat outside. Wept.

My honey star. The yellow-loud-purring-honey-star.. Who loves to sleep on the shelf. Loved. Is gone.

The dr asked me whether I wanted his corpse. I said no and asked her to buried him for me. I don’t think I’m strong enough to even glance at him.

Inside the car, I cried until there’s no more tears because I know.. today..today I lost my sweet manja cat.

Kakak am so sorry sayang. It’s not that kakak don’t love you. But I just have to do that. I hope you will forgive me and please know I did that because I love you. Just because I love you.

Maybe some of you don’t understand what’s the big deal. But to me, it is.