Cured. That’s me. I missed the smiling face, I missed the merry laughter. I used to miss my old self.

Thought the sun would never shine again, thought my breath would die away, thought my world would crumbled. I thought I would never find myself again.

Every single day, I asked myself. What happen to me? What happen to me? What had happened to me?

Why is that even surrounded by thousand shoes I feel panic? Why is that even surrounded by flocks of colourful dresses I feel lost? Why is that even painted with layers of make up I feel ugly? Why is that even I had so many wonderful friends I feel lonely?

Am I not going to be happy again?

Therapist. I’ve known one yet the feeling still remain the same. Lost, lonely, superfluous and wounded. Then she came along.

I used to sleep with tears in my face and let them dried when the sunlight came. But her voice, her empathy, her kindness slowly take them away.

Who would foresee a stranger who follows my daily crapness could be the one to help me through my time of turbulence. Yet she did.

I don’t know how she does it but somehow everything turns ok. After few months, she made me enjoy our shopping spree together. She gave me the old feeling of delight ness on seeing rows of shops and shops and the sensation feeling of reaching for the coloured paper bags.

I am the same old me, now.

See the smiling face. It’s genuine this time.

Thanks babe.
You know how much you helped me through.

It’s Chinese New year and I desperately need to go shopping. I repeat desperate.

Why? Because I found that lots of my precious baju were missing. Even the xixili bra is missing.My guess baby t is missing. Tyan skirt is missing. Apa la lagi nak missing. The red halter neck is missing. Wah, siapa yang ambik barang-barang aku?Itu aku belum check mekap dengan accecories aku lagi tu.

Yelah, memangla i’m one absent minded kakak yang comel butttttttttttt.. kalau setakat misplace accecories tu logikla ni baju yang aku suka. Celake.Skirt tu baru pakai sekali ok, pelikla.Siapa yang ambik niiiiii..Dah merata carik ok

Lepas tu ni tgh ada mood nak shopping chinese new yearla pulakkkkkkkkkkkkk.Cutilah semua kedai-kedai itu.

Ok let’s make a list what are the things that I wanted to buy.
1.Cute tops/halter/tube/whateverrrrr
2.Miss Sixty /Ax jeans[kalau ade saizla]
3.Shoes for jalan-jalan
4.Shoes for errmm sporty sporty type
5.Bra
6.New navel stud
7.Books

Apa punye listla.
Ah, tak kire..belasah je jalan..kalau suke boleh beli.

Apa pasal entry ni macam dah sampai tahap bimbo?
Whatever.

Wong Ah Beng said I’m keji because I went out with a guy from friendster.I thought I am keji myself but hey where am I suppose to know guy when what I did every day was go to work in the morning and get back when it was already dark. Plus my ex-colleagues are all woman.So I saw friendster as one of the way for me to got to know people.

But I know someone who is much more keji-er than me. Yesterday we went out for a drink after sometimes not hanging out together since both of us were occupied with our work.

Inside the car he was telling me that few days ago someone called him asking him to join a gym. Now, he did think of joining a gym but not that keen to splurge some money every month on something that he know he won’t be doing often. Initially he wanted to say no but he changed his mind after hearing how soothing the voice was from the other line. The next day he set an appointment with the consultant.

She appeared to be a pretty attractive girl. Cute and everything. Being a Casanova [haha, aku tau kau marah bila aku guna words ni :p] he started to play his role. Oh man, if you know him personally you would say he’s one of the smooth guys with sugar coated tongue, plus he was granted with great looks.Nasib baik aku kenal kau dari skolah rendah tau. Anyway, the girl told him everything about the package and try to persuade him to join. Now..now..The truth is, he’s not that keen but he still say yes..

“Ok, I join tapi u kenela kluar dinner dgn I”
Wah, mentang-menangla kau hensem..Sangatlah keji engkau ini.

I asked him whether did she went out with him, he said yes. And I asked him whether she’s still single, he said..comfim!

No wonderlah engkau tersengih-sengih ok.Kalau tak muka kau same je toye mcm aku.Haha.

Demm.Tolonglah kau jangan ada awek cepat-cepat, sebab nanti takde sape nak melepak dengan aku dah sampai malam-malam buta and mendengar craps aku lagi.

Ok, macam lari dari topik. Anyway, my point is, if you have lots of resources, use it. It depends on how you handle things actually.

Kalau engkau dah sememangnya poyo, you go to VVIP clubs and try to woo chic you will still be labeled poyo. Tapi if you are born with talent [seperti kawan aku tadi] letakla dekat mamak pon, you surely can senang get a chica. It’s all about the way you do it.

So ah beng, bila you nak klua dgn I?
Hihi.
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Oh, one more thing, Gong Xi Fatt Chai & Happy holidays!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..My ex-colleagues. Even I hate that place but I love you guys from bit to pieces.

They are all chinese but I’m loving them. They even speak chinese but I’m still loving them.

Nicole used to sit besides me. We talked craps all the time.She would tilt her head from her cubicle and start giving me juicy juicy info which I likeeee. I love going lunch with her. Always have something interesting to talk and to bitch about. I told her about the news she was sad, she said “Nooooo sha, who am I going to talk crap with?”. Me feel that too Nic. And I love her selection on shoes and bags.And love her manja-ness and humbleness.

Cheryl, ahh my ATL. Always there when I need someone to mengadu. I kuat mengadu k. But i think I gave her headache coz she had to handle someone rebellious like me. But yeah, she can take it, I guess. When I told her, she was nearly in tears. I was sad too k, Cher.Anyway Cher, good luck with sham, now you had to replace my place entertaining him and his story. No worryla, he’s a cute and nice guy. Just play along k hun?

Anyway, I wish you guys good luck and yup perhaps we could hang up sometimes but no char siew pleaseeeeeeeeeee.

Hello bunnies.

How was your day? Mine was mar-ve-lous. Woke up at 11 am.No working for today.
Actually, no working for the rest of my life [until further notice].

See that’s the problem with pisces, they tend to follow their guts. Gamble ajelah. Pegila mampus apa nak jadi.Hahaha.Best tak?

I mean, it is soooooooooooooooo wonderful waking up and knowing you don’t have to do anything for the rest of the day. But dun worry bunnies, of course I have plans for my life and of course I will do something about it.

So, if you got no date and feel like berpoye-poye, fret not..chics is here.
But tomorrow I am quite tied uplah..Got something to do.

Oklah. I need my afternoon nap.
Hihihi.