From far I could see someone with tudung in my house yard. Even though it is almost 1 year we didn’t see each other but her posture still stay vividly in my mind. Since I was fasting I asked her to stay for dinner.
“Why didn’t you call, like always?”
“Saje nak jumpa kau.Lama tak jumpa”
After eating my pair of eyes met her eyes. “So what’s up, you must have something important to tell me or else you won’t be on my doorstep”
“I came to you because I know you won’t judge me and you won’t say anything hurtful”. With that she shows me an ugly bruise on her porcelain arm. Revolting. I staggered.
“He did that to you? He shouldn’t have, he has no right to hit you”.
“I know but he apologized. Please don’t say anything bad about him. Whatever happens he is the one I chose to spend my life with”
I frowned. Other people would probably let out spiteful cursing to see one of their close friends in that condition but just say that I understand her feeling. Or perhaps I know how does it feel to be in her shoes. Not as in exact way but alike. Saying nasty thing about her loved ones wouldn’t help, it will only hurt her more.
“Perempuan bodoh” I said to her.
“Hah, engkau pon sama”
With that we laughed as if nothing happened.
Some women were educated up to the highest level but somehow because of 4 magic letters they become injudicious.
It’s not that they can’t think clearly. They understand that they are not supposed to be treated that way but to them, ah..come what may, I can still handle it. I rather be hurt physically rather than emotionally.
Come what may.
Foolish. The heart is still breathing even though there would be thousands bruises. The feeling is still blooming even though there would be thousands of words that stabbed like sharp knives. Despite the ache, that single name would not be missed in every single prayer, hoping God will bless him with best things He could offer.
As a friend who loved her with full of my heart, I should have advice her to do the right thing but who am I to say when at the end of the day she is the one who is going to make the decision, she is the one who wants to live her life.
“He shouldn’t do that to you”
She sighed. Perhaps saying I know.
“I love him”
I smiled.
I know my friend,
I so know.
