it’s friday.*gasp*.Time flies [ke fly?entah] isn’t it?

today is my last day at this company. and shall start my new job as early as monday. no break at all. not that i don’t want to have an break but being at home kinda make me go crazy. nuthing to do and that will lead me to depression. weird isn’t it? but true..i need to make my self occupied.

i hope my new job will give me more satisfaction. to me what is money without satisaction. i mean you go to work everyday but at the end of the day you feel meaningless? hmm..not my cup of tea.

plus what’s the point getting all dressup to work when nobody acknowledge you? ahh i love to dress up to work, give me the boost of confidence. and now i can pull out every wardrobe that i love. skirts, shirts and dresses. ahhhhh..blisssssssssssss..

i just hope that they would still allow me to ym. what is life without ym?

am feeling good already!!

have an enjoyable weekend people!!

second entry for today.
am so bored.
ag attended few meeting for the whole day [mcm dlm drama rtmla plak asik meeting]
the rest are just plain bz.

so i updated storytella.

setelah sekian lama..
hehe

Ok.I think there’s something wrong with my face. Nolah, it’s not that bintik. I think I have an innocent-naive-oh-I’m-a-helpless-girl face. This is terrible, not good. For 12 years I had try to put the impression of a tough girl. Because I’m petite, I have no other option but to put on my garang face, so people would steer clear of me, for my own defense. Some even said that I have a snob face. Snob-snob pon ko ngorat aku gak…

Like yesterday, while I was on my way from bukit nanas monorail station to dang wangi lrt, a guy came up to me and said

Guy: You look lost.
Me: No.I’m not.I’m going to the lrt station.
Guy: Let me show you the way.
Me: But I know the way.
Guy: Comelah..

He drew closer. Fuck. I had no choice other than to walk faster. Do I look lost? I don’t think so. It’s because I think my face is written “kaunter pertanyaan” all over it. People keep asking me for direction. Adakah muka aku nampak seperti seorang cendiakiawan? Mungkin juga. Or perhaps my face looked so sincere [haha] and obliging.

Perhaps it’s obliging coz once when I was walking home a guy stopped me and said that he was a tourist, a lecturer from sabah who was left behind by his tour member.Right.Sorry but he didn’t look like a lecturer to me. Anyway, he wanted to borrow my money so that he could find his tour group since he left his wallet back with the rest of his belongings. Ehe..I dunno whether he’s bluffing or not but hello, even if my face look like 2 years old girl, I’m not loaning you my money. Had enough with loaning people money but did they ever pay me back? No. And those were people who I called friends and you expect me to do that to strangers?.Duh.

But the worst thing is..when mat rempit and those in seluar hijau baju putih mengorat-ngorat aku di jalanan.Cakapppppppp..Aku ni ada muka minah rempit ke?Memangla aku hisap rokok rempit tapi takkanlah muka aku mcm minah rempit kot?And tak cukup garang ke muka aku sampai aku dingorat oleh sekumpulan budak-budak skolah yang komfem spender pon mak belikan.Hoh.Dimanakah hunk-hunk semua?Tsk..

First thing when I get home today. Practise making garang faces on the mirror.

Grrrrrr…

Honey star likes to manja with me.So Last Monday when he hopped to my lap, I began to stroked him until he purred.He curled himself and continued purring until at one point,out of the blue he began to lick his fur frantically.Followed by a killer stare..haa..at that moment I knew that his pyscho-ness is back.I stopped stroking him and pretend not to look at him because if I still do, he would surely went ballistic like some mad-cat.But ahhhhhh…even I made my distance from him, he suddenly jumped to me and acted as if I’m another stray cat from the neighbourhood.Habis tangan aku berlobang!!!Kucing tu memang saiko ok.Sekejap manja sampai tergolek-golek..sekejap lagi tiba-tiba gigit tangan aku.Mengonglaaa…

So I have a cacat arm.But I guess,that’s not enough.Due to some allergic reaction..perhaps I got it during my vacation..my arms are full of ugly spots now.Bintik-bintik merah yang keji.And at time, mereka[bintik-bintik itu] berasa agak gatal juga.I am pissed because now I cannot wear any sleeveless or something like that.Hoih!!!

huk..huk..

Mungkinkah tak lama lagi aku akan bertukar menjadi seekor kodok?

By the way, sibu trip photos are available at bena’s.Enjoy!

Note:The original version of this entry has been edited due to personal respects.Thousand apologies.Siapa yang sempat tu sempatlah..hehehehe

It was supposed to be a beautiful Saturday with sunny sun and bluish sky, instead it showered heavily. At the outset we were supposed to go for a swim at one of the islands but with that kind of weather, playing cards sounded more appropriate. Initially we wanted to play poker but..

“Make sure you say his name when you shuffle the card”, Nikkit said while one of us shuffled the card. It’s her second reading. The first one said that there is a thorn between her and her other half. Ironically, it’s true.

She shuffled, nikkit arranged the card according to the alleged arrangement and again there it was..a queen of diamond. Nikkit out of the blue felt an urge to abide to nature’s call and subsequently meon volunteered to perform another reading for that dear friend using a different approach.

So the cards were shuffled and name was called. When it’s time to divulge those cards everyone stopped talking suddenly and turned vigilant. The first card was king of spade, representing the guy. Second card was disclosed, ace of spade, representing the guy’s heart. Fuck. Everybody’s hearts started to pound heavily. This couldn’t be real. The last two sessions also started with king of spade and followed by ace of spade. Preceding to the previous session..the third card was ace of heart, representing her heart. Meon slowly flipped the card..and then everybody started screaming .It was ace of heart. Nikkit was still inside the toilet when she heard the screaming. On the spur of the moment she tautened her pants and rushed outside. By that time, everybody was hugging each other waiting for the final card to be revealed. Please dont let it be queen of diamond, I prayed. Three times of co-incident is just not acceptable.

The rain was supposed to stop instead it still pouring frantically. Its getting cold and the sound of rain hammering the roof didn’t alleviate the atmosphere. There was silence in the room. But later, the room was bursting with screams when the final card showed..queen of diamond. All of a sudden I could feel some eerie feeling creeping inside the room. I thought it was just my feeling but then everybody began to mutter an identical remark.

“Bulu roma aku berdiri!!!”
Spooky.

I am not superstitious. Even when my mom told me about her weird dreams and ermm..few discoveries related to me, I found that it’s quite hard to believe, even I’ve been experiencing uncanny occurrences. But two years ago I had my card reading, performed by nikkit at tinas house. That time I was with my ex and he was there too. One card in my reading bothered nikkit, it was queen of spade, meaning perhaps something related to family. The bigger the card, the bigger the problem. My ex also got the same card when he was being read. Even though sshe was feeling uneasy nikkit didnt say anything to me instead she assured me everything will be fine and it was only stupid cards. Me? I never thought about the reading after I left tina’s house. Few months after that we broke off after her mom detested me for just being who I am.

It never crossed my mind that the reading turned out to be true. So the queen of spade must be his mom.

Nikkit, kau memang boleh keje dekat carnival ok kalau kau tak dapat keje lepas ni.
Siapa tak mau jumpa fortune teller yang berbontot seksi?