Do you know how does it feel to be suicidal? Let me tell you about it.
You feel like your life is empty, like there’s no more joy and it’s not worth living. When you sleep at night, you wish you would never open your eyes and when you wake up every morning, you can’t see any ray or hear the bird singing. All you heard is noise.Noise.And noise. And you wish you could make whatever it is shut the fucking hell up.
Things that you care don’t matter anymore. Even things that used to amuse you failed to cheer you up but..to the world you are smiling and maybe laughing.
I am having a nervous breakdown and I tried to give signal to those who I thought care but I think they misinterpreted me. They say I’m needy and I’m hard to please. The truth is I’m fucked up. I am lost and I need comfort. But maybe I’m giving the wrong signal too. You see maybe all they hear was yapping, yapping and yapping.Or barking, barking and barking. I bet you too did not get my signal.
All I need is someone to listen, to love me, to comfort me when I’m feeling downhearted.. especially really down. Why issit that they only understand me when my spirit is soaring? Why issit that when I’m deprived and lost and helpless and seeking comfort they said that I’m difficult and needy and so hard to please? Can they see that I just want to be and feel really loved? That I need support?
I am not ok. How can I be ok when I cry when I supposed to laugh, I choke when I’m supposed to swallow, I feel fat when I can feel my own bones, I am tired but I can’t sleep? I don’t know why the hell I am having this frightful feeling. I really want to know where this shit comes from and how can to make it go away. Say I’m mengada or what so ever fucking things u want to say.I dun fucking care.I dun even give a fuck on what you think about me.
Kenapa aku aje yang nak kene give give give and give. Kenapa aku aje yang nak kene paham orang, nak kene comfort orang?Kenapa macam tu? Tak boleh ke orang nak paham aku macamana? How I feel and what I want?
To whoever said the world does not revolve around me,fuck you too.
No.I don’t want to talk about it. Go away.
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hi chics! hopefully everything is OK for you.. just let it out what u feel.. but, don’t feel so depressed b’coz of it!! i’m sure, the joy will come after you.. cheers!!
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hi chics! hopefully everything is OK for you.. just let it out what u feel.. but, don’t feel so depressed b’coz of it!! i’m sure, the joy will come after you.. cheers!!
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chicky,
am i bad friend? Dont i care enuff? I’m sorry, i dunno what the problem is, i thot i knoe. Now you’re talking about feeling suicidal.U know u can always talk to me, mb what i said in response is not what you’d like to hear but i did speak my mind n i hope if i’m in your position you’d too. Even tho it hurts, that’s part and parcel of life. U’ve got to be strong, and with support from ppl around you whatever hurt that’s troubling you is bearable. U know u can always tell me anything and i wont judge you (the way u never judged me). I WONT call you mengada, i wont call you needy. But i WILL speak what’s on my mind. Sorry i’ve been pretty swamped with things lately, but if u really need me call me i’ll be there. U’ll never walk alone (eh, liverpool lak)… take care dear, and if i dont get that phone call… i know i’m not realiable anymo
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chicky,
am i bad friend? Dont i care enuff? I’m sorry, i dunno what the problem is, i thot i knoe. Now you’re talking about feeling suicidal.U know u can always talk to me, mb what i said in response is not what you’d like to hear but i did speak my mind n i hope if i’m in your position you’d too. Even tho it hurts, that’s part and parcel of life. U’ve got to be strong, and with support from ppl around you whatever hurt that’s troubling you is bearable. U know u can always tell me anything and i wont judge you (the way u never judged me). I WONT call you mengada, i wont call you needy. But i WILL speak what’s on my mind. Sorry i’ve been pretty swamped with things lately, but if u really need me call me i’ll be there. U’ll never walk alone (eh, liverpool lak)… take care dear, and if i dont get that phone call… i know i’m not realiable anymo
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whoa u really sound depressed gurl. take a break. go somewhere, do something u’ve never done before. really…u need a break.
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whoa u really sound depressed gurl. take a break. go somewhere, do something u’ve never done before. really…u need a break.
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aku rase aku paham, tp tatau laa kalau aku silap paham. u need sumone to tell u dat everything is fine, things gonna be ok sume. mmg dlm buku saikologi, pompuan mmg camtuh.we’d like to hear all d gud things, comforting. n aku pon camtuh gak..nk sumone to assure me dat everything will be just fine, we’ll work things out ke..so don’t worry, i dedicate lagu ‘girls’ from destiny’s child to u
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aku rase aku paham, tp tatau laa kalau aku silap paham. u need sumone to tell u dat everything is fine, things gonna be ok sume. mmg dlm buku saikologi, pompuan mmg camtuh.we’d like to hear all d gud things, comforting. n aku pon camtuh gak..nk sumone to assure me dat everything will be just fine, we’ll work things out ke..so don’t worry, i dedicate lagu ‘girls’ from destiny’s child to u
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heheh bena aku suke lagu tu.thanks
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heheh bena aku suke lagu tu.thanks
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i just don’t know what to say.. coz cam kita pompuan slalu gak aa nak rasa camni.. and feeling that no one understand.. or get us wrongly…
whatever happens.. if u feel like crying out loud rite thru me ears… u know where to find me…
be strong.. coz i know u are… luv ya!
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i just don’t know what to say.. coz cam kita pompuan slalu gak aa nak rasa camni.. and feeling that no one understand.. or get us wrongly…
whatever happens.. if u feel like crying out loud rite thru me ears… u know where to find me…
be strong.. coz i know u are… luv ya!
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kamu sudah try itu zoloft? tapi nanti sex drive jatuh menjunam tau.
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kamu sudah try itu zoloft? tapi nanti sex drive jatuh menjunam tau.
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i agree with ninie. take a break.
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i agree with ninie. take a break.
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hey..im feeling the same too….chics jom amik zoloft jom…
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hey..im feeling the same too….chics jom amik zoloft jom…
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zoloft tu apa? ubat kurus ker? nakkkkk
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zoloft tu apa? ubat kurus ker? nakkkkk
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get a life coz i think u have none… i m waiting for the day ur “by” uuuuwwweeekkkkk leave u coz ur attitude s***… i think u have mental prob and it is in critical stage already…
btw, 38 ya rite get really unless ur r really short n tiny…. short mayb yes tiny no…
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get a life coz i think u have none… i m waiting for the day ur “by” uuuuwwweeekkkkk leave u coz ur attitude s***… i think u have mental prob and it is in critical stage already…
btw, 38 ya rite get really unless ur r really short n tiny…. short mayb yes tiny no…
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lawak aa chi..rajin tol promote zoloft die..zoloft tuh anti-depressant nik
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lawak aa chi..rajin tol promote zoloft die..zoloft tuh anti-depressant nik
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ni my 2 cents, i think you just need to shut out the world. you need to figure out your life.
Ni useful quotes that I collect and ponder when I’m down. Hope you will them useful too.
1. “..kita kena redha pada takdir Tuhan.. dan kita kena syukur atas segala nikmat-Nya.. semua org perlukan hari murung.. itu yg buat kita kuat.. sebagai insan, kita tidak dinilai atas dasar kemenangan tapi atas dasar kekuatan untuk bangkit semula setalah jatuh.. itu tanda kekuatan diri.. ”
2. “..a wise man says, “If you don’t change your direction, you will end up where you are heading now” ..”
3. I saw this doa, can’t remember what it is for, but somehow macam kena ngan ur situation. “..Antara doa yang dibaca Nabi Musa (as) bermaksud: ÂWahai Tuhanku, lapangkanlah bagiku,dadaku; Dan mudahkanlah bagiku, tugasku. Lepaskanlah simpulan lidahku supaya mereka faham perkataanku.Â..”
take care chics. only you know what is best for you.
sorry, cam ceramah lak, friday mode lah..
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ni my 2 cents, i think you just need to shut out the world. you need to figure out your life.
Ni useful quotes that I collect and ponder when I’m down. Hope you will them useful too.
1. “..kita kena redha pada takdir Tuhan.. dan kita kena syukur atas segala nikmat-Nya.. semua org perlukan hari murung.. itu yg buat kita kuat.. sebagai insan, kita tidak dinilai atas dasar kemenangan tapi atas dasar kekuatan untuk bangkit semula setalah jatuh.. itu tanda kekuatan diri.. ”
2. “..a wise man says, “If you don’t change your direction, you will end up where you are heading now” ..”
3. I saw this doa, can’t remember what it is for, but somehow macam kena ngan ur situation. “..Antara doa yang dibaca Nabi Musa (as) bermaksud: ÂWahai Tuhanku, lapangkanlah bagiku,dadaku; Dan mudahkanlah bagiku, tugasku. Lepaskanlah simpulan lidahku supaya mereka faham perkataanku.Â..”
take care chics. only you know what is best for you.
sorry, cam ceramah lak, friday mode lah..
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my attitute stink?hey i think u must be ugly and miserable.ha!
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my attitute stink?hey i think u must be ugly and miserable.ha!
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