Mom started to talk about the ‘M’ thing again.She make it sounded like it’s going to be soon..

Like Pauline said..I’m in deep shit..

oh yeah i am..i can even smell it coming..

Letih nak mati..tade mood nak keje..feel like balik rumah and sleep..

Uh..I have no life..SOMEONE PLEASEEEEEEEEE…

Talked to Nik..I asked her why is that i always shun all guys that i had a relationship with even though people keep telling me that they are treating me nice?And she said..I’m needy.Am i?Do u think i am needy?

Well,i want to see mf bf everyday, if he can’t make it..fine with me but i’ll go out with my friends(including guys) instead since i have to fill up my day..or if he can’t go shopping with me..i can go alone..urm..is anything wrong with that?

Or maybe i just love my self too much that’s y la aku needy kot..humm..okla…kalau mcm tu tanak jadi needy dah..kau nak dtg..dtg..tanak..sudahhhhhh..sukatila nak buat apa..asalkan bahagiaaa

uh..saiko,sialll

I had lunch with our temp staff today,in the pantry.I never talk to her before and so did she…i don’t think she talked to anyone..it’s because she just can’t.God didn’t provide her with a voice.She is mute.

Anyway, we did had some non-verbal conversation and also’ writing’ conversation. She told me that it’s hard for alot of company to hire her because of her diability,except our manager who kind heartedly offer her a job here. By the way, she alos did offer me aj ob here eventhough she knew that i know nuts about this job.

Back to the temp staff.Why issit that other people tend to ‘overlook’ upon her ability and only saw her disability? I dunno why, but i wish all people will treat each person equally without looking at races, abilities, gender or anything..

Since my job is really killing me, i might as well get a new job fighting for humans right..hehe..Noot..

Had a girl’s night out with my ‘bestest’ buddies last night and it was fun, except the part that they claimed i try to fake my enthusiasm. i was not faking, for the fist time in this week i was really happy.

During lunch yesterday, i had KFC for lunch since i just can’t decide what to eat. KFC pon KFC la..

But..Last night..since we went out with the Asst. Manager of KFC, Shaza decide to feed us with KFC..Thank You,babe..Really love the cheesy wedges with extra-extra cheese..Yummmmy

Menyesal aku makan KFC mase lunch..Chisss…

p.s: To my school sistas, I love u guys soo much!!Muaahhhzzzz..

At last i made him admit the fact that i’m just a ghost..

even when i cooked for him everyday

even when i ironed his clothes every morning

even when he hugs me

even when we kiss

and even whe he say “i love you”

he didn’t see me, he saw another person..

he never LOVE me as he said everyday, instead he just LIKE me..

as the person who pampered him..as a replacement..

shit..

why didn’t i run that far?

why didn’t i just leave even i know how much he still miss her..

why..why..

and now..my heart is turning into stone..

and every second i can hear it crack..

it is going to break soon..

and perhaps there will only dust left..